So I’ve been back from holidays for about 2 weeks now, what do I have to show for this? Well, to be honest, not as much as I’d hoped. I’ve actually been struggling with a little bit of mild anxiety. This all started sometime while I was in Europe on vacation. I didn’t know it at the time, but it turns out Nasonex (a nasal steroid for allergies), has some side effects that actually affect me. Anxiety is not something I have ever really had. So it caught me off guard.
I’ve stopped using the spray for about 2 weeks now and the anxiety is almost completely gone. It only pops up if I don’t sleep enough now. This made me a little more aware of what people who suffer from anxiety feel. It’s not fun. It makes you doubt even your own rational thoughts. My anxiety was actually centered around “being stuck somewhere” … like planes, or even a restaurant. Anytime that I would be forced to not move, whether because of norms (like at a restaurant or movie theater), or in a plane or bus, my hands would sweat, and if I thought too much I would actually get a full on panic attack where my chest would feel warm and my heart would beat faster. I managed to keep it under control though.